Ascension

Science shows dissociates can induce religious state of mind. (Ketamine is super overpriced to get as an antidepressant though legal.)

However I effortlessly did what they call the Kundinalli Awakening before I knew what that was when on them before. (Experience something like cosmic consciousness; see the Illusionary nature of reality. Feels more feel than reality when you're in that place. Last 4 years still interpreting what I knew then.. I'm a Christian, so for me it confirmed the existence of God. Do remember I thought I saw faint image of a serpent in the darkness, which vanished. Kundinlii Awakening reminded of that, otherwise, wouldn't have put much thought into that. Did I see God? I saw what could maybe be called Angels. I view it kind of different from Hindus even though, even if their description is similar. Think any  question I'd have, answer would seem to come to me; I fell back to Earth when my thoughts started wondering I was God (Or evolution of God, but next day was told by one of the entities maintaining the illusion we are one. So one being according to it.) What I felt was a tingling at the bottom of my spine, then when I went into a meditative position, straightened my spine more than ever before without even thinking about and effortlessly brought it from the base of my spine all the way up a passage never used it felt like; up to the otp of my head. Which is when I blew into a different dimension and could see the illusion from the outside. Could see how everything is interconnected, how clues to God's presence is everywhere and people ignore it. Wasn't really interested in individual people, as I felt they were all just playing a role in a bigger thing. Also could see everything in my life were clues I was the one, but still interpreting that. Also that people undergo various reincarnation and there is meaning in everything. (Someone like the creator of the Matrix, might have been bad person in a past life, which is why they were born feeling out of gender; but they also created the Matrix because of it. So meaning behind it.) Was reminded of that realization when I later read the ancient Greek philosophers thought people were born as the other gender as a karma thing.. (Like maybe they were among those in the crowd who wanted Jesus crucified or something was what came to mind for me at the time. I also viewed things in a religious lens, where things roughly go along the lines of the Bible, since meaning in everything. Even if things don't need to happen exactly that way. So December before the pandemic was already expecting the end times to be imminent. Since if God is everything, prophecy is how he'd prove he exists to those paying attention. So gives those who aren't able to experience it the ability to see the signs and know. Which is why I felt it might be needed many things happen predicted, So people would be able to believe. Also if things didn't head down that way as expected, maybe I'd be questioning what I knew then more. So far other than things moving slow, does seem to be going in that direction.

Once you experience, you feel like a bunch of different songs and texts are trying to describe something similar. However you're in a total knowing state for a while, I remember typing as I was moving through the mind sphere, there were many of them. Also there were skeleton/ghost like entities which lacked bodies who wanted to occupy mine when they noticed me, but I was just fascinated by them and knew they couldn't effect me. I wasn't afraid of anything in that state, even if I wasn't sure I was alive. Haven't feared anything since, there is nothing to fear. Death is unreal to me, in I know this body isn't all there is. I mean even there, there were entities trying to occupy my body. So I still had a body. What comes next was what I was more interested in then earthly things, which I felt would never surprise me again. After the December I had the experience, lock downs began, quit college since I knew it was just part a bigger plan to force digital ID or mark of the beast to partake in the economy, with college pointless distraction. That's when current job came to me effortlessly, without trying. I had written stuff going back to 2015 where in state of mind approaching it, where I was under the assumption cosmic consciousness was the evolution of humans. But it was only then I was fully in a state of cosmic consciousness. Describing the experience was near impossible, but could at least warn people against getting tricked. So I think I both believe in reincarnation, but this is probably last time here. However there time was meaningless, with everyone maybe different versions of myself. So different parts of a spiritual journey, but going on memory 4 years back saying what I knew in that state. Next morning when still sort of in that state but waking up in my bed, felt like I was doing everything for the first time and everyone was different versions of me. Some point heard a voice ask me what about the world, which I said could continue without hesitation. Voice also told me we are one, seemingly in response to whatever question I had in my mind. Then I guess I went back to sleep voluntarily, since felt stuck in limbo and like nothing would surprise me again. So here I am, but think I want to wake up again.

Falling from there back to Earth doesn't feel great, meditated on it a while. Eventually constantly clearly my mind of all thought word providence came to mind, which I latched onto and googled. Which seemed to answer my questions. Divine timing & things being God's care. Which at the time made me really happy, knowing it was in God's care & I didn't need to worry. Why would I come back? When cosmic plan has been in motion forever; Or maybe because an end is just a new beginning. Should I do more? Less? I feel things will probably go along the lines of them trying for a one world government while also  proving they can't be trusted; so it falls apart. Making way for something better maybe. So I both expect current regime to try everything possible to seize power, take guns, etc, but fail at everything. Not sure I even expect a next election, but who knows. If I should be doing more.