The Weekly Marxist Cancelled for This Week

Dear comrades,

Unfortunately, Week 5 will be skipped, for somehow the push of a single button deleted the ENTIRE script just as I was finishing, and I'm NOT retyping the whole damn thing.

The topic of Nuclear War will be resumed next week, in a far more simplified manner.

My dearest apologies for failing you yet again. 

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Every ounce of this world seems against Marxism, and in a sense against me as a human for believing in it so strongly for the hope it provides: for that sense of happiness that there is a future of light instead of impoverished darkness.

But of course, this world refuses to let me live with that in peace, or in peace at all. Every happiness I find is countered without delay. Even in the mass of dignity I have built up over the years, I look out my window at Rimskaya, and...

I still manage to feel like I'm not doing enough for my people. I've only been in office for some time, my father having gone off to Luna to live out the rest of his life in his own peace, and I can't seem to fix anything wrong. The cities still need repairing with amounts of capital that seem insurmountable, and out geopolitical stance and influence continues to decline.

Aequitas has been for its part very successful, but for myself, nothing ever seems to be enough. Rimskaya needs a leader that can act decisively and on a regular basis more than just regular check-ins.

And in that sense, I am not fit to rule.

But there is no one else at the moment willing to take up the trouble anymore. I'm stuck in this spot, depressed as f#ck, but with a steel will that refuses to give up knowing well what happens if I do. Rimskaya needs someone to lead it, and to leave my position vacant would risk counterrevolutionary insurgency and foreign invasion.

I would detest Rimskaya ending up like Communist Britain, torn from war again...

 

I will not give up on this, no matter how much it hurts me. I can't afford to.

Rimskaya is my home.

I will love her,

care for her,

and defend her with my life.